A drowing expression

The setting sun induces fear into my heart.
Sorrows of my life never seems to depart.
Why am I always ignored and rejected.
Moments of joy I am never able to hold.
Tears of agony run down my face.
Expression of contentment are hard to trace.
In this trauma I have resolved to be brave.
But still I do crave for an affectionate word.
- - - - Brij